blind adorable trust.

I wanted to write you something beautiful. Something that would take your breath away, something that would make your heart skip beats. Something as amazing as you are. But I’m suffering from a serious lack of inspiration, and I don’t think I’m able to communicate anymore. Maybe I should keep it simple – just pour my heart out, word by word.

I thought everything, absolutely everything was lost. That love was a lie, life wasn’t worth it and I was just some kind of wanderer with nowhere to go. The world was just chaos and dirt, people were animals with human bodies. And I always longed for a way to put my soul back together, since it had fallen apart like a destroyed puzzle. My heart had been lost in time and space for a long time, each of its pieces hidden in a different place, so no one ever would find them and put everything in its proper place. That was until I met you.

At this point, I actually wish you’d take all that I am, all that I have, and keep it in the safe place that is your heart. And I needed that, I needed a safe place where I could hide when everything goes wrong, when everything’s a mess. So far, your heart is the safest place i’ve ever known, and I really couldn’t imagine anything better. I want you, I need to be with you. I feel myself slowly getting back together, I’m starting to feel alive again. With you, I can’t hide. I just show all my colors, my soul – without make-up or disguise. You can see all of me, the good and the bad, without judging or questioning. You make me feel out of my element, but it never felt more like home. With you, I don’t need to run away.

And you showed up just in time. I was about to give it all up, throw it all away – leave without notice and never look back. Somehow, I changed my mind, because I don’t need to hide or run anymore. What I need is to be with you. To be near you. To keep this confidence I regained thanks to you. You came to me when everything was lost. When I was unable to trust anything. Like some sort of little angel, you brought me something I could actually believe in. Gave me hope. Restored my faith. I came to you in pieces and you made me whole.

I finally feel more alive than I ever was. I can feel the blood in my veins, running faster everytime you come around. My hands shake. My heart keeps skipping beats. And it’s all you. It’s all because of you.

Never thought I could like someone the way I like you. I was lost until you found me. All I know is that I want, I need to be with you. So you can hold me when everything is wrong, or when everything is alright. Simply, so we can be together. And when that day comes, I will never let you go.