tickling and a fairy tale.

I don't know why, but somehow i actually like being around him. The moment was simple, nearly perfect, and fearless like the world was about to end. With the TV on, the movie kept rolling, while i stroked his hair with the other hand on his chest. Feeling his heart beating. And i felt more alive than i ever was. Every second, still fresh in my mind, almost like it was happening right now. Offering me such a peace of mind it's almost impossible to believe.

He was, from the very beginning, the missing piece of the puzzle i've been trying to complete. My mind was chaos before we met. Now all i can feel is peace and quiet. Seems like i'm in this dream bubble, that nothing or anyone can burst. And it still thickens the air i breathe, making me peaceful and nervous at the same time. I long to know if it was more than just that dreamy moment, if it was more than just my imagination, but i'm not in a rush to figure that out. Not just yet, at least - i want the dream to last a little longer. Perhaps i'm being selfish, but i'd rather extend the dream as seconds tick away, than let it wither with all the questions i have in my mind.

More than touching me, he somehow managed to reach out and touch my soul. Made all my demons disappear, or at least be more silent - almost like they weren't even there. And i felt like myself again, starting to feel like the moment was exactly what i needed to be alive again. All of my ghosts went away, i forgot all the problems and the weight of the world.

We were there, playing like two small kids, trying to distinguish right from left. And just when i thought that it couldn't get any better, his lips reached out for mine, and we locked ourselves from the world with a kiss. How i wish i could save that moment, freeze time, anything. Because memories fade, and life is way too fast. Maybe i'm just a foolish little girl. Nevertheless, the moment seems carved in my mind forever, i hope it never goes away. Somehow, i'm starting to think that those fairy tale moments that everyone talks about are actually real, and being (feeling!) alive isn't the worst thing ever. In fact, the feeling is so good that i want to rewind it, and re-live it, over and over again.

We were laying there, quietly. My head on his chest, his arm around me. The movie was over, and the TV was off. All i could think about was simplicity, how it is the best thing in the world and how it eases my mind. How it makes me like being around him so much. How it made me wish all the clocks stopped ticking, so we could be like that forever. Sometimes, it feels good to be childish and naïve. Sometimes simplicity can make the world go round.

I can't help thinking about the way i loved those quiet moments. It is driving me insane, i can't forget it - and i won't. The way you leaned your head on my lap and just stood there quietly, with my hand stroking your hair. The way i felt your heart beating when i leaned my hand on your chest. The way you breathe. The way we kissed. No matter what happens, i won't forget that moment. And especially, i won't get out of my mind the way i feel when i'm around you. Because that moment was real. Because that moment was with you.